Hahahaha!

[Shamino]

Hahahahahahahaha!
I wish I could paste this MANICAL LAUGHTER inside of this page!
I wish every single ONE of you can hear my screams between sob-ridden giggles and these destructive thoughts.
In all honesty, I give up.
I tried and tried, I promised myself i'd stop- but I kept going. Because I fell in love.
That's right, again. I fell in love. I'm in love with my sister- I love her dearly.
I would take as many rounds as my body could take for her.
I would take as many stabs as my body would before it would break for her.
Its a very brotherly, sisterly love- and it can't and I don't want it to go beyond that.
But I can say very confidently- like everybody does nowadays, that I love her.

I see a lot of I's above there. Does that make me selfish?
I hope not!
When I lay awake at night,
When I twitch in fright
When I laugh like a maniac like this, with bitter sweet delight
When I drink the nights away...


So I relax, I calm down, I look back at the situation.
So I chill, I take the pill, I look over my shoulder.
So I contemplate, I take a little drink, I revise the events at hand.
So I just sit there, and the metaphor's, like some ancient dust, are blown away.
There it is!

THERE
IT
IS!

Hahahahahaha! This entire time, through all of it- there IT IS!

The oldest saying, when it comes to a friend watching another friend. Ancient, simple, four words. I should use these more often.
I'll stop helping, intruding, being a stress.

I'll stop depressing her. All I can do now is look back and say


"I told you so."

[maniac___]

Curious.

[Mr. Kenny]

Curious indeed.
Who says "I told you so" nowadays?
Honestly.

Well are you glad you got it out? Heh.

"Its a very brotherly, sisterly love- and it can't and I don't want it to go beyond that."

How lovely to see it written.
(I can believe something someone says online, I just have to see/hear something for it to be true to me)

[Shamino]

The difference is I can see it in your eyes just how well you can bullshit me

[Mr. Kenny]

Bullshit? Where?
Ooooh. Riiiight. Thaaaaaat.
Well we need to work on that, ok?
Trust level + perhaps?

[Shamino]

We'll work on your decision making too.

[Mr. Kenny]

My decision making shall stay as is.
I'm afraid I'm not changing anything about myself.
Gil likes me the way I am and so do I, so as I am I shall remain.

[Shamino]

Sadly Sings Destiny.

[maniac___]

I still have no clear idea what you're on about, Shamino. Although now some parts are becoming more obvious. But I thought I have always tried to learn the best from you, and also teach you the best I could.

Being in love with a sister is dangerous.

Many men can be in love with one woman.
But only one man can love her. Her husband. Her man.

To love a woman truly and openly, you have to be that man, and in such way that she faithfully accepts it. If you are not that man, you have to become that man.

Because if you are just a brother, or a friend, your love WILL fade. And if it won't, her husband will make it fade. He will protect his property, his mate. Like a lion. He will break your connections with her the best he can. Like a lion.
And hell, he will be right!
This is how life works. This is nature.

You do not tolerate another man near her. If love is more than two ways - you destroy the man. You have to destroy him. Or he will destroy you.
Another man's choice should not worry you. Let him have his choices. You have a powerful lion's paw. Take what you can. Give nothing back.

Remember Lucas Robertson aka Admin Zorro of Hitman2.Net?
"To be the man, you have to beat the man."

Ironically, and also naturally, all women on this planet truthfully enjoy watching destruction being done by men, in their name. Every woman enjoys it.

Thank you.

[Shamino]

When war begins, Truth is always the first casualty.