This is my first serious try at written/vocal art, hope you like it. It pretty much sums up my feelins right now.
I'm Alone
The people here, they enjoy their simple things.. blissfull ignorant. They enjoy rooting for the home team and eating their hot dogs. They drive their monstrous-sized vehicles to the local theater where they sit down and watch timeless actors portay warm-hearted heroes and evil villans. They gather together and exchange both cheerfull sorrowfull stories and myths of the past.
I, though not all-knowning can say that I am hardly ignorant. It may seem like it to some, when I don't pay attention to the local baseball team or know anything about the new SUV that's wider than the local roads, or when I'm watching a movie where all the characters seem faceless and hollow in my eyes, bringing no names to mind. Many call me ignorant for not being able to share or enjoy their stories, whether they be cultural jewels or rumors of what happened to Timmy in the high-school cafeteria last week.
I don't belong here, it's as simle as that. I'm alone... I walk alone, I breathe alone, and I live alone. Too many times have I been seperated from people because I don't know the words to their songs, don't understand their inside jokes, or haven't heard the stories that they all grew up knowing. Too many times have I gotten shocked faces when they hear that I've never heard of this actor or that singer, too many times have I been ignored because I'm simply different. It's true, I'm alone. My heroes go un-worshiped, my beliefs not believed, my ideas not understood, and my morals and ideals not agreed on. I don't belong here, I'm not American.
As much as I want to give in, I can't. As much as I want to quit, I can't. As much as I want to end this struggle, I can't. I'm strong. I'm alone but I'm proud. I have honor. I know that someday, I'll be somewhere out there. I'll be in a place where I don't have to know the batting order of the Cubs, I'll be in a place where people don't care who lost on Survivor last night, I'll be in a place where my beliefs and ideals are at least understood. I'm struggling to survive in order to find my Utopia... and I'll fight to the end.
