Never Going To Stop

Never going to stop loving you, even though
Every few minutes I just laugh like some sort of Maniac.
I randomly get the chills when thinking about certain people- it shivers, up and down.
The sleeping patterns I currently hold are non existant- I sleep when I collapse, and when I collapse, I sleep.
And I can't stop loving you- no matter what i'm told you say or do.
But nothing is good, and so nothing can be good enough to be true.
Maybe I won't get what I want today- and maybe not tomorrow.
But I do know that it'll be mine, for sure.
I don't even know what my motives are anymore, but I do know what I want.
I just don't know why I want it.
But does it matter?


And i'm never going to stop loving you.

It doesn't matter anymore,
that someone knocks at your door?
I've heard of all this shit before,
your clothes upon the floor.
Shame, for shame!
Simply a tool to be used and used lovingly- and nothing more.
I was never a tool to be used- I was never loved.
It was just the idea of being in love.
Too close, or too far away, no balance, no equilibrium.
I fell and fall for women taken, broken, in the process of both.
In anger I raise my hands, in rage I move my fist.
You're the only person in the entire world that stops these spinal shivers, you're the only person that puts my mind at ease for me to sleep.
And I can't stop loving you, no matter what is said, or no matter what you've done.

And i'm never going to stop loving you.

For this one I'll simply say that there are two kinds of love. You have one, I have the other. That's not going to change.

You tell me that I put all my "building blocks" around Gillian.
Where are yours?

We talk all the time about what I'd do if I didn't have her.
Let's change the subject for a second.

What would YOU do?
Put up some new building blocks Paul. Around something else.

My blocks reside in my family. My blocks are evenly distributed between friends, aquaintances. A good number of my blocks rest in Automobiles and the auto hobby. A large number of blocks reside around Alex, Kenny, Steve, Keith, and even Steph. Yeah, a good chunk are at the base of Big Sis' feet.

A word of advice i'm taking as well- don't push it.