Ever since my parents split up when I was seven my mom has been distant from me. She used me when I was little to gt things from my dad and lied to me about comming to get me on holidays. She would chose other kids (her ex-husbands grand kids)over us when she had the chance to spend time with us. THe christmas before (like a week before) we moved 7 states away, she had us for the weekend. Long story short she pushed us out of our bedroom my father made for us to let her other family stay there, we slept on the floor and she spent the weekend with the other kids.
Another christmas she promised (and I for once belived she would keep it) to come and visit us. The day she wwas supposed to leave my dad asks me to call and see when she's leaving. I do and she tell's me some bullshit lie about bills and her ex husband slashing tires and all that junk. (Later I found out she just got a raise and the ex is living a long time away)
Also she would tell anyone that asked about us a bunch of lies and how she's talked to us days before (yea right).
So then a couple of months ago she sends me this letter informing me my dog died and about illnesses that run in the family. She also tries giving "her side" of the story to her and my father's divorce. Basically saying how she really tried to come back and make it work but by that time she relaised my father was gay and it wouldnever happen. Which all of it I don't think I belive because she asked likeshe didn't care to see us cause she had a new life. Then last month for my birthday she sends me her wedding ring to my father and tell's me she's been saving it for me.
So basically I confused as hell about her. I don't know weither to hate her for not being in my life or give her a chance and risk that fact she could be using me again.
The reason I'm actually writing this is cause I had emailed her asking about a saving's bond I had in wich she responds:
What do you tell a woman who suddenly thinks now is a good time to talk to you and be your mother.Sure Kasey, I'll be glad to send you your bond, right after i get some recent pics. of you & Tyler(You know, like i've been asking for , for the last two years. Seems like the only time you e-mail me is to tell me what a bad mother I am or when you want something from me.* No matter what you think, I still love you &Ty very much!
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