hahaha i've done that like jackass style shit.. but yeah i have an aweful memory things like last christmas are starting to fade away, i have no sense of time though to help out with that i visualise the year in colour coded sections with a time line and blocks for holidays and shit it's like one big cycle of things i can't explain it.. but it's the only way i can figure out like things in my head and it's not helping much any more.. i don't think i've got llike some kind of long time dementia which will get worse over the years i think it's at it's worst now things from about a year ago are starting to fade away, i can't remember joining the void any more XD

yeah yeah.. damn gates..
by the way when you said damn gates i thought you were ranting at bill gates then.. so yeah damn gates.. and damn the bill kind too..