i'm glad that u understand what i meant with the "i hate myself" thing... and i agree, emotions on paper (or computerscreen O,o) isn't the same thing as well formulated words since your emothions can only be explained in one way and if u change it its not the same thing or even destroyed. Good writing is very different because u can change the mood and it wont be a "wrongfully interperated emotion".
i dont have anything against people who write how they feel, but seriously... there are too many people doing that so it gets kindof dull.